Yesterday I wrote a piece about how I was confronted with the deeper layers of addiction in my system. And how confronting and at the same time enlightening that was. Especially to be allowed to experience how those programs work. For the researcher in me that is growth. To find depth in that and to experience insights, that also means that I can get to my clients on deeper layers. As within, so without.
And although it works differently for the energy type Projector (my energy type) than for other types. I do believe that you can more easily bring another to a new level or insights if you have been there yourself. It is easier in any case.
Only a Projector does not necessarily have to experience that first with himself. He can bring others to a level where he himself has not yet been. And then get there himself. If we talk about Human Design for a moment. Quite interesting.
Now I'll go back to the addiction. I got several questions about what Mystic Garden was like. Several people also wished me a lot of fun, but that went a bit differently. It was quite confronting. Because of the session the day before, I was already in the theme of addiction. So now at this moment too. It is accompanied by sadness, anger and a lot of resistance. For the researcher in me also very interesting to experience.
Only yesterday it became a bit too much. The entire festival was one big mirror. Lots of projections. Which of course says more about me than about the other. In addition, it was also not my style of music at all. I would have definitely enjoyed myself at hardstyle. I still like that music. Although I honestly wonder if I would have liked it around the theme that is playing out at this moment.
One of the mirrors made it clear that I'm not that festival guy anymore.
Another mirror was the addiction that came up. If I don't like it, maybe I should just drink something or take some plant medicine. Now I am a fan of plant medicine. I like working with it. I see it as very sacred and in a ceremonial setting of great value. But in a situation like yesterday it is the addiction that talks. For the researcher in me very interesting to experience and at the same time very painful.
I also saw myself walking around completely off the map again. Also such a mirror. It was quite intense. That is why I decided to go home after about an hour and a half. Making that choice felt strong and on the other hand also painful, because I had hoped for something different inside. In any case, a very nice learning experience.
And as with many things lately I really experience the duality in everything. Nothing is just fun, nothing is just shit. Everything has different layers. It is our own interpretation in how we experience things.
That's why I just leave things as they are. I don't have to have an opinion about everything. We don't have to have an opinion about everything. Some things are just the way they are. We can experience that, we feel something about it, thoughts come to mind. But what do we think about it? That's up to us. Sometimes observing and perceiving is all that's needed. Without doing anything with it, without having an opinion about it, but just BEING with it.
Love,
Brian