{"id":1560,"date":"2022-06-03T21:34:53","date_gmt":"2022-06-03T19:34:53","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.brianvanleeuwen.com\/?p=1560"},"modified":"2022-07-14T21:37:39","modified_gmt":"2022-07-14T19:37:39","slug":"tantra-dit-vind-ik-wel-een-beetje-spannend","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.brianvanleeuwen.com\/en\/tantra-dit-vind-ik-wel-een-beetje-spannend\/","title":{"rendered":"Tantra.. I find this a bit exciting"},"content":{"rendered":"

Okay, I find this a bit exciting\u2026.<\/p>\n

I am on my way to my first experience with Tantra, on my way to Awakeland in Portugal.<\/strong>\"Tantra<\/p>\n

And where I normally write easily, I now notice that writing about this is stagnating. I can't find the words as quickly as I normally do. Because what is Tantra actually? A year ago my head was still full of judgments. I saw Tantra as people who are attached to each other, filth, orgies, cheating. Why would I participate in something like that? I'm really not going to do that...<\/p>\n

Everything but the truth of course, but that's what I convinced myself of. Something inside me threw everything into the battle to not have to give in to something I long for deep inside, to something I find really interesting deep inside and curious about. Love and deeper connections, not only to and with myself, but to everything that lives, but let me start with myself.<\/p>\n

What I am also especially curious about and at the same time scared of is discovering my own sexuality. And damn\u2026 there are still some old beliefs and limiting thoughts here and there.<\/p>\n

While discovering your own sexuality is something beautiful in my opinion<\/h2>\n

\u2013 It\u2019s also funny how I suddenly feel super insecure about this writing, while I normally don\u2019t feel that way so quickly. \u2013<\/p>\n

I now know that discovering your own sexuality has nothing to do with filth, orgies and cheating. I do know that I can encounter it because of old programs that run in me, but not that it is true. I think it is precisely about loving yourself, making a deeper connection, transforming, but also seeking your own boundaries. Yes, also in the area of intimacy.<\/p>\n

For someone who used to get jealous when his girlfriend was talking to someone else\u2026 This is really such a beautiful, wonderful and healing step.<\/p>\n

And how grateful and happy I am that I can embark on this adventure with my sweetheart\u00a0Esther Geskus<\/span>, because with her I dare to do this, I feel safe enough to open up. And I know that we will always respect each other's choices and boundaries.<\/p>\n

This afternoon at 5:00 PM is the opening ceremony. Exciting, but ready for it.<\/p>\n

This will be a week of being vulnerable, opening up, observing and perceiving with a curious view and above all Connecting in Surrender and Trust.<\/p>\n

Lobi,
\nB<\/p>\n

Go back to all blogs here<\/em><\/strong><\/a><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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